Monday, February 18, 2013

Huffing and puffing

I used to weigh 145 lbs. I now weigh 263 lbs. I am tall, so it may not look like it, but it definitely feels like it. I get tired out doing the most ridiculous things - like walking up stairs and putting away laundry. I just started at the gym in preparation for a 13.1 mile race in 11 months. I have managed to complete 45 minutes on the treadmill two days in a row, but my hips are killing me.

They're killing me in a good way, in that way that you've awoken muscles you haven't used in a while. However, I still deal with terrible pain every day when I stand or walk too much. It feels like someone is sticking a burning knife into the sides of my back above my hips. I know that if I even lost 20 lbs it would subside some.

I've started the exercise portion, now I need to hit the healthy eating portion.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Once upon a time

Once upon a time, I was a normal average girl. My weight always lied safely in a "normal" BMI range, give or take a few times, but a month or two of eating right would get me right back where I belonged.

And then something happened. I can't pinpoint exactly what it was, either. It started with binge eating and culminating in just giving up and finding myself 100 pounds overweight.

And it sucked.

It sucked really bad.

The harder I tried, the more I failed. And then it was so overwhelming that I just stopped trying and succeeded in failing.

But I'm done. I've registered for a 13.1 in 11 months. I don't expect to run it all, but I expect to complete it in under the required time. And I expect to be at least 50 lbs lighter by then. I HOPE to be 75 lbs lighter then, but expect to be at least 50 lbs lighter.

So, here I go.

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